I always get this cowardly feeling whenever I can’t put “Sorry” and “Thank You” etc. into spoken words. It’s kind of pathetic, ya? I mean, I can be thinking of these words whenever I accepted help or etc. but I can’t say it out loud, I find it quite hard. haha. Especially to my mom. Lol. I think I have made [...]

Everyone hates, despises me. Everyone dislikes me. I’m self-hating. Their expression of scorn. Silence: The perfect expression of scorn. Just terrifies me.