On emptiness

As I sat waiting for my emergency anti-histamine jab at NUH 2 hours ago, I couldn’t help but drown myself in a sea of self-pity. There were so many names on my mobile but none I could really contact. Did I really want to disturb my friends at 2.30am on a Saturday night just to tell them I’m having a severe outbreak of allergy and make them feel helpless? No, I can just shut up, get the jab, and get my ass back home. So in the end I didn’t make any calls or smses. I tried to pretend nothing happened, but I felt really shitty…and I’m feeling even worse now.