thats why im feeling x.x again.

i thought i was able to get over it. apparently i havent gotten over it. i hate it. i hate myself. no, i love myself, i hate my body. sarah chatting with me about what cca to join. so while she was talking about sp’s ccas, i went to check out np’s list of ccas. i really wish i can be in the badminton club, or the archery club. but ONE problem ONE BIG FREAKING IDIOTIC ANNOYING PROBLEM. my back. darn! and again, im asking to myself why did i have this back problem? crap. well, i think this time im going to join campus crusade for Christ. i mean it is kinda cool to have fellow christians in your school. besides, ngee ann is near my house. plus i think i need to be in a cell again. and i want a cell in my school. i want fellowship. i think mum wouldnt object. in fact she would be too happy. cause she has been worried that i wont have any christian friends when i decided to join she and dad for orthodox church services. i think i will need more support, especially spiritual support in school. i mean who has slipped disc at the age of 17? plus poly is a new environment. guys and girls. Lord knows what will happen to me.