Trusting

I have very bad trust issues, so I’m often quite distanced from most people, even when they make an effort to know me. I think this can be termed as ‘fake’, but to be honest..I don’t really care. I have had my trust betrayed enough to make me realllly suspicious of people. Once someone does something wrong to me or say something wrong about me, I will do a mental strike of them - they go out of my life. Some people might give chances to their friends..but I don’t. It’s quite sad…because I know I don’t make any real friends since I’m not willing to share things about myself..but like I’ve said, I don’t really care. I have a lot of friends/good friends and that’s enough for me. I don’t need buddies. Never believed in ‘buddies’ since I was a kid. I treat nobody as my buddy…even though they might treat me as one. I’ve gotten enough complaints about this, like how I keep a ‘wall’ between myself and people, but I like it that way. Don’t try to knock down my wall, you’ll hurt yourself. And if you can’t even say a simple ’sorry’ or ‘thank you’ to your friends, then I think the friendship is a complete farce. Basic manners, people. You can never be too ‘familiar’ with someone to not say your Ps and Qs. You might think you are close to your friend, but the feeling might not be mutual.